Can't sleep

[ciphergoth]

I keep going over things in my head, imagined conversations, accusations, justifications, apologies and explanations. I might lose a lot of friends I value, and while I want to blame others, I have to take some of the blame myself. Serious issues of concern to the whole community could get clouded because of issues that only concern a few individuals; meanwhile, none of those individuals get a good time out of it, and a whole lot of good people are made unhappy; parties not involved get caught in the crossfire. General badness, for which I have to take partial responsibility.

Yes, I know I'm being cryptic, which is exactly what I was beseeching other people not to do. I'm too tired to work out whether I'm wrong to post this now or whether my feeling that people shouldn't be cryptic was just way off base or what, but I promise to think about it.

In other news, ergotia sent me the most fabulous, wonderful text message today. Thank-you. I love you.

update 3:05am: At least I partially worked out the state of my finances.

Comments

[lizw.livejournal.com]

I think there are at least two kinds of cryptic communication: the kind that lets someone explain their feelings without having to give details they shouldn't or aren't comfortable with, and the kind that lets someone set other people up to fail to get it and then blame them for it afterwards. I think this post of yours is in the former category (and so are duranorak's, for that matter.)

[duranorak.livejournal.com]

Hear hear, and thank you, Liz.

~hugs~, Paul, and I hope everything sorts itself out. Here if you need anything at all.

E.
x